Being under the weather

Somehow with the loss of my eye I seem to have zoomed into non-stop doctor visits, pharmacy visits, talks about the pros and cons of this or that medicine, what to do, how to prevent more harm, and why, yes why did it happen at all? There is not eloping at all, one follows along and hopes for the best. Claudia told me about the Eye Institute at Columbia; she works with a very gifted therapist and recommended that I go there and immerse myself into a few sessions. My insurance allow me to do so. Although inside I think I will not be able to get my sight back, and every doctor whom I asked has confirmed this, but I just cannot give up. And if I only improve the vision in my good eye. Everything involves a huge "paper trail", such as references, reports, which I all initiated today. Why not! What a miracle it would be if it really works!

One thing is to listen to the stories about healthcare and the high medical cost, and the other is to be exposed to it. Incredible, what I have learned. There is for instance the blood thinner PLAVIX, it costs $187 per month. The pharmaceutical industry in the United States stopped selling the generic of PLAVIX, you can only buy the brand name although the generic was available once. They also decided that one month has 28 days only. Another medication that I am now taking to lower my blood pressure costs per month $89, and this number is just for the generic drug. Altogether I take I think six different medications and it all adds up, plus of course I pay for my medical insurance $300/month. It is frightening! I looked into the possibility of ordering from Canada ; the generic of PLAVIX is available there (surprise)  at a much lower price.  I will probably pursue this option although Dr. Davis warned me that "there are rumors that the medications in Canada come from India and they are not pure". What to do, I think I will take a risk.  It feels like being in a windstorm that takes you high up into the air and twirls around without stopping. What a crazy world. Where will it end?